The Pursuit of Happyness

I've decided to take an entry I had made initially for everyone back home in the South and make it available for everyone to check out. After watching the Glow In The Dark Tour for the first time back in May, it really inspired me and got my mind racing again. Something that hasn't really happened much this year. I'm not going to ramble on any more with this, since there is plenty to read below, but I hope you're able to take something out of what I have to say.

"I'd rather be hated for who I am, than loved for what I'm not". - Kanye West

Throughout my life, I've always seemed to be different than anyone else around me. Mainly because I never tried to put on this facade of being someone that I'm not. Too many people conform to what is "cool" or what is "in". Whether it be during their high school years, in the office, or in everyday life. When that one person steps up and brings a different outlook on the world, or just straight up speaks their minds, for the most part the "cool" or "in" crowd shows reluctance in accepting them into their circle. I honestly couldn't care any less if someone does not agree with my views/opinions, if that's how I feel on a particular subject, then that's how I feel. I'm not going to conform my thoughts or hold back on my words for the sake of trying to salvage some type of 'relationship' with any particular group of people.

BE YOURSELF.

For the love of God, be yourself. You only have one life to live, so why live it trying to impress others who will come and go throughout the years?

Don't ever let someone tell you that you can't do something. If you have a goal, a dream, or even a personal resolution, go out and PURSUE IT.

THE BIGGEST RISK YOU COULD EVER TAKE IS NOT TAKING ONE.

I've encountered many people who said that I would not last in New York. They said I would be back within months and go back to working the same job I was stuck in before I left. People laughed at me because I dropped out of college, they said I would regret it. I guess because having that piece of paper to hang on your wall really holds a lot of weight...especially when you don't even put it to use, right?

I had a dream. I pursued that dream....and I didn't give a shit what anyone else thought. It's been a long, hard road through Hell and back but whatever it takes, I'm going to make it. No matter the cost.

Fast foward to the present day, I've been living in New York two years strong...I've traveled across the country...and I've met a lot of interesting people along the way. You know what else? Those same people back home are still stuck in that same job they were in two years ago when they said I couldn't make it. Although this time around when I come home people try to show me love and support. It's funny how people's opinions/outlooks change and they just expect you to roll with it and accept it now. You weren't on board when this ship took off, so why should I let you on deck now? You try to hop on and I'm throwing you overboard...simple as that. I can see right through you. Fuck You. Plain and simple.

As harsh as those two words may seem, that's exactly how I feel. I'm not going to bite my tongue.

If you have a dream, please PURSUE IT. Why settle for less than what you are capable of? To get what you truly want in life, you have to STEP OUT OF YOUR COMFORT ZONE AND TAKE RISKS.

Yes, you may fail and fall right on your face. But get right back up, dust yourself off, and get back at it again. You may have so called friends turn on you and not agree with the choices/decisions that you make...and you may receive a lot of backlash, but ignore that negativity and do something for YOURSELF and not for someone else for once. Don't live your life for someone else...whether it be your parents, your best friend, your boyfriend/girlfriend, fiance/wife. Whoever it may be. Don't ever let their influence get into your head to the point where you feel like you HAVE to be what they want you to be.

For all my people back home with big dreams, get out and pursue them. See the world. Life is too short to be scared of testing the water. Sometimes it takes a little push, sometimes people jump in with both feet. Whatever it takes, get out and do it. You may very well wind up back in that small town somewhere down the line....a month, a year, ten years....you may fail...and you may have people give you the "I told you so". But at least you can look them in the face and say I TRIED. I chased a dream, I learned from it and became a stronger person, what have you done?


I'm going to cut this entry off here. So stop reading, get off your ass, and live life.